Wearing that Bikini Top

It was my first time to wear a bikini top. And I loved it, I never felt so much freedom.

It was a night in the pool with friends from work after a week of planning, gathering, writing, editing, and doing live for a new show. (What could be more fitting than spending it in a hotel with pool and buffet of Asian-European breakfast?)

Wearing that top brought out a range of feelings. The idea of finally having to wear it made me felt excited, thrilled. When I was actually wearing it, I was quite surprised... I never thought it would look good on me (so I was wondering also, how it would look if I were wearing its pair because I wore it with shorts I borrowed from a friend). And after those two hours of first-time-experience I told myself I'm gonna wear it again (next time, I'm going to wear the whole thing) and buy some more pairs.

It was summer 2009, my cousin and I just spent a couple of days in Dumaguete and Siquijor. When we came to Bohol we found ourselves in a store with overflowing bikinis. It was a chance for me to buy myself something I never had before, so i grabbed a couple of bikinis tried them on, it was that pink and white which looked good with my type of skin color (that was my cousin's comment). But there was no chance for me to wear it since I went back to work the following day, just until this month when we stayed in the hotel.

The thing is, I learned something from just wearing that little piece covering only my breasts. It was more than just showing off some skin, it's about acceptance and enjoying the freedom to be able to wear it. There are countries banning wearing bikinis or anything that shows off too much skin for that matter.

It was about appreciating the freedom of expression (what you wear, how you wear your clothes is self-expression, you know?). We should be grateful of the freedom that lets us be.

Second, it was also one way of confirming or reassuring oneself that yes, I accept me for who I am, no matter what my skin color is, no matter what my body type is. It is one way of imposing to people that hey! I love who I am and I don't care if you don't dare!